I once believed I’d found love in someone’s arms, someone I trusted completely. He has been friend since childbirth, he was charming, attentive, and everything I thought I wanted. Little did I know, it was all a facade. Now my world feels shattered. I trusted him with everything, my heart, my body, only to discover he put my health in jeopardy. This is my HIV confession. I never thought I’d have to face this, but here I am, trying to make sense of the betrayal and the diagnosis. The pain of deceit and the weight of this disease have left me feeling broken and unsure of how to move forward. He should have been honest with me, at least but he lured me into this. I need to learn to live differently, to adapt to this new reality, but I can’t do it alone. How do I navigate this? How do I find the strength to continue? I can’t tell my mom, she will be broken, i even decided to spread this disease in my area, so many boys have been hitting on me and i think i should spread it. Don’t think I’m wicked, but i can’t die alone.