I feel very alone. I dont seem to have strong friends. Most of my friends have their own issues. Its either they are borrowing for money, complaining of marital issues or judging me for my weight or broken tooth. So i feelt its better to just mind my business in my small corner. I cry myself to sleep most nights, that I’m terrified of being alone with my thoughts. I’m the one who helps others, but I don’t know how to ask for help myself. It’s like I’m living a double life. I even have three elder sisters but growing up I remember i used to be secluded in their discussion because they felt i was the youngest but we are much older now and it still feels the same. Absolutely no one in my life