Hm. I don’t even know how it happened. One minute, he was my best friend, the person I could complain to about anything like lecturers, life, you name it and the next, he was the only thing I could think about. Ei?

We were walking back from class, laughing about how our lecturer thought he was some kind of stand-up comedian. He nudged me with his shoulder and said, ‘You’d be hopeless without me, you know?’ And just like that, something shifted.

See ehn. I always complained about his messy hair. Now, it was suddenly adorable. The way he laughed wasn’t just funny; it made my stomach flip. And don’t even get me started on his eyes…. how have I never noticed how bright they are? I could use them as a source of light. lmao

Every time we hang out, I feel like I’m carrying this secret around, and it’s getting heavier by the day. I overthink everything. how long I can hug him before it’s weird, if he notices when I fidget, or if my voice sounds different when I talk to him now. The worst part? He keeps asking me why I’ve been acting strange lately, and all I can do is brush it off.

Do I tell him? What if he doesn’t feel the same way? What if it ruins everything? But what if he DOES feel the same way, and I’ve been wasting all this time hiding it? I’m terrified of losing my best friend, but I don’t know how much longer I can keep pretending.